do we take things for granted sometimes?
it can't be helped, really.
when most of us are so so so fortunate,
able to go to school, able to get the stuffs we want.
and most of the times it comes without any hard work and effort.
most of us will not get it, will not realise how lucky we are, will continue to take things for granted,
because we haven't lost it yet.

some of us will never lose grip of this special privilege because our parents love us too much.
because our parents want to give us all that we want,
because our parents want to give us everything they can give us.

some of us will lose this special privilege maybe tomorrow, in the near future, or today.
some of us, may not even have owned this privilege before at all.

who knows?
who knows what future has in store for us?
who knows what might happen in the near future?
or even, today?

how long was it since you last hugged your daddy and mummy tightly?
how long was it since you last kissed them on their cheeks?
how long was it since you last held their hands?
how long was it since you last told them "i love you"?

it's all random. (:

i don't want to grow up.
maybe i'm still that girl in the uniform.
i'm not ready.
i don't want to.
but i have to.
i need to.

i'd always loved my comfort zone.
but time comes when you need to step out of it.
like i always got suggestions in fb telling me "to step out of my comfort zone".
and yes i should.
i must.
i need to.
i'm not like you.

not at all.

pork. !

blood okay. blood blood blood.

thou we may not see each other as often,

as much as I want to (LOL)
but i stil love u as much okay !

and alotalot(:

have fun today , enjoy urself !

{aishiteru}

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and my dear jiaPOO, u'll be just fine. hugs*

haven updated in a long time,
been busy doing proj almost everyday.

stil my favourite lil cutesy pie(:

and i love my daddy.
and i love my new phone(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDISOOOON(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LESNER(:








get well soon dear bestie!
i love u okay ...
i reali do .






hopped by 2 meinu's blogs,
to esther: hope ur finger heals quickly! (:

cheeeer up jas .
wad esther tagged u is totally true.

why hate urself
when so many love u because
you are you.

if u're not u in the 1st place
who would've loved u so much
who would've loved u until now

and stil loving u ?






i love you(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANISA(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIKI!






thank u yr for helping me.
reali reali reali appreciate it.
THANKIE(:

me.
imperfection.
stupidity.
flawed.


u need a break , from me.
maybe u'll do better(:

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good luck for yo comp lydia!
hav fun at KL alright girl(:



and and and i wanna get the pink sidekick luhs!
just like that of xiaxue's.
HOHO ~
oh wells,
was watching step up 2 again just now and
TIO SOT
hahhhaha !
some of the main characters were using mahs,
SO .....
so chio i wanna get !!!! :X
WOOO !

spent these days wif alicia dear,
love her manssss.


and bestie pls cheer up okay .
im here .

heeee. baby sweet love jia you for yo showcase today alright u
can so do it ! (:

park u a hole, cut short hair also nv tells me !?!?!

kame kame kame kame ~

hav fun at work my sweetcandy(:

to my dear bestie u:

u are beautiful ,








and flawless, in my eyes(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI ERN(:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATRINE(:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUAY SAN(:

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went to watch red cliff with baby dear boy on monday,

nice show but when its climax den

TO BE CONTINUED?!?!?!

lolllllll !

i wanna go read three kingdoms liao WOO!

and after my menses i wannnnnna

LOSE SOME WEIGHT YO .

{hottie wannabe}

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKZ !
be HAPPPY(:



HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARTIN (:





omg.
i jus read the blog kame told me about.
omg omg omg.
damn sad la.
how can lidat one.
first time i read other ppl blog
read until i cry.
WA LAO.

weird as it seems.
life is reali weird.
gone with the wind, just like that.
who would've thought ?

my deepest condolences.
live on girl, live strong.

http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/

after my tramautising events,
seriously in need of therapy.
WOO ! (:


sushi-ed with candy sweet love at ri ben chun,
AISHITERU !!! (:



meet alicia dearie to walk walk arnd amk hub.
lots of spas photos i tells u.
we laughed like mad cows.
SERIOUSLY.
the below pics are the more human-like ones.
HAHAHA !

and aft fb was kame my bandit.
ranting session.
bitached a lil ,
i cant get enough of u laaaaa :(
and i realised u hvn send me OUR SPAS PICS EH !




thanks baby dear and bestie for being thr,
thou not physically,
i thank thee for yo love(:
wished i could get more of those.




and bestie !
cheer up okay !
projs suck big time.
but U CAN DO IT AIGHTTT.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMIT(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYMOND(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH(:

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my ulcer's hurting right now.
i added salt to it just now.
fressssh raw skin.
oooooooo ~
it's hurting so bad,

but its nothing.
its not even half the hurt i went thru these 2 days.

thurs was proj.
i tried my best,
did al that i could do,
do al that i nv did b4,
do although i dunno how to,
wrecked my brains out.
i suck at programming.

but i tried.
my best.
my very , very best.
and it wasn't enough.

and he had to push me to the edge,
telling me everything was wrong.
and jus refuse to look at my best.
im telling, sequence diagram doesn help.
its killing me.
it doesn fucking help anything.
okay.
and that wasn't enough.
my best wasn't enough.
wasn't good enough is one thing, if wasnt good enough, at least u acknowledged my work,
i'll be more den grateful.
no u din.
not at all.
my work's worthless to u.
my work's jus a piece of shiet.
my effort and my best,
was crap.
bloody crap.

u had to,
u had to make me cry.
i hate u.
and i say
HATE.

just now was even better.
daddy and mummy got crazy.
started to say me,
why i dun wanna go learn car al .
WHAT THE FUCK IS UR PROB ANYWAY.
im using mY MONEY.
not yours.
i dun like my clothes alr,
i wanna give it away,
SO WHAT?
WHATS WRONG WIF THAT?
WHAT'S THE BIG FUCKING DEAL ABOUT THAT?

everyone's just freaking trying to put me down.
everyone's just wanna fucking make my tears roll.
why ?
what did i do to deserve this?
karma .
karma , teacher .
KARMA .


whiskey's my friend tonight.



oh ya, suddenly rmb smth LOL.
my dear u,
i dunno wassup wif ya
maybe its the workload/ smth
but i tried to help,
i suggested tonnes.
and u said no to everything.
so,
if u wanna do it urself,
dun complain.
dun show me ur fucking attitude.
knn okay.
its not that im good to step on i tell u.
its GOOD for u that im fucking keeping my mouth shut
cos u dun know me.
seriously.
we wun fucking be friends anymore
if i flare up.

im warning u .
its not funny.

dun fucking think that only u have a temper.
im only giving u ur bloody face right now.

projs is FCuking hated.
java is FCuking hated.


SCREW YOU

GET WELL SOON MY SWEET CANDY LOVE!

1. drink more water
2. eat regular meals
3. eat ur medi
4. GET MORE SLP!



THANK U MY DEAR BESTIE for ytd night.
ilu.




HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUPEI (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHONY. !

reaching a turning point.
wad to do?
how to do?
i dunno.

tried,
my best.
but it always seems like minimal.

why why why.
what if i fail?
what if i cant do it?
what if im gonna flunk?

right now.
im lost.
directionless.
lost lost lost in time.

i dun like it here.
i dun like it like that.
home is gd.
home is a getaway.
home is sometimes denial.

but the next morning i wake up,
i have to go thru it al over again.
the vicious cycle.
can i not?
cant.

madness.
just come riding in a horse and ride me away to never, neverland.