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The Dancer

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The Dancer's Past

February 2007
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Credits

SHYAN the bestie

Monday, October 12, 2009

8.50am

and it's another morning at work.
it's the 7th week, 12th will be the end of my attachment here.
it sounds really near, though.
so near, the speed of time, scares me.
throughout my stay here i feel like i've been missing out alot,
alot in everything,
my fb, my friends lives, i think i missed out on myself too.
i feel so lost, now.
sitting in the middle of a junction, wondering,
just wondering,
where i am.
and which way i want to head towards.
weird.
not as though i've never felt this way before,
but it's just,
never as lost as now.
guide me.

people have alot of different takes on everything,
so much so that,
i think i may be wrong sometimes.
and still wondering, what's right?
nothing's that much of a right and wrong, really.
it's just how you perceive it to be, whether YOU, think it's right, or it's wrong.
it's all in you,
and it's all, your choices.
and what you choose to believe in.

negativity set in to me after attachment started,
prolly because i seemed to have lost touch with my usual world,
its far more depressing than it sounds, really.
and my body's not that fit as the past,
things are taking a toil on me,
easily screwing me up compared to last time.
i realised, i dun wanna be like that.
this,
is not me.
i am not like that.

i love me people.
i really do.
maybe i just need them to tell me that they love me too.

where art thou?

i miss the old times.
the good old times when i stayed out every night, late, for dance.
and never once felt tired and sad.
the good old times when me, d and sometimes kel,
went to have supper together and tau huay.
the good old times when highcuts rocked and went crazy,
the good old times when we all went out together to play L4D and C's crying to me in the middle of the night(not that its a great thing).
the good old times when i can still sms meow,
the good old times when u are so excited to see me,
the good old times when kame and i talked about everything that's bad of us,
the good old times when my yaya gathered for bestie's birthday,
the good old times when i had time with babyboy, the times when u piggyback me.
the good old times when me and pork went mad,
the good old times when i can meet alicia as and when i like,
and many many more that i haven't mentioned,
yes, i wanna poke shar's boobies too,
i miss you, you, you and you, if u know that i love you.
the good old times,
i want back in my life.
i need them,
i need all of you.
iloveyou really isn't that much of a casual remark,
i say it, cos i really do mean it,
it may seem like alot of you,
but each and everyone of you are unique to me,
i love all of you, in every little special way that's different from the others,
im sure you know it.
my 'i love you' ain't casual,
it was never so.

every single time i say it,
i say it from the bottom of my heart.